Planning a Plan

You all might be thinking, what in the name of topic is this? Planning a plan? Am i trying to be fancy with titles for my posting nowadays? Come to think of it... yeah why not. It does sound a little catchy. Planning to Plan or perhaps planning a plan. Like planting a plant. Ok that settles then. If i ever going to write a book i'll reserve this title Planning a Plan as the main title of my book.

But then what shall i write about in my book? About my life story? Hell no. Who would want to read a story about someone who has just failed miserably in making choices in life and has yet to recover from it? In other words who would want to read a book about losing weight written by someone who has yet to lose any?

Anyway, i kind of think that in life we plan all sorts of things but at the end if it is not meant to be.. well it won't happen. Sometimes it turned out that the plan that we have planned to carry out, if carried out and materialised will have an adverse impact on us. In other words it could turn against us. For example you plan to climb a mountain. For months you have been planning this but on the date planned something came up which disallowed you to join the team to go. You felt angry and sad obviously for not being able to go. But then it turned out that something disastrous had happenned. Those who did go - according to the plan - were unfortunately and tragically struck by lightning , all of them upon reaching the top of the mountain. And some even perished at the site. How then would you feel? Still angry and sad or relieve and overjoy that you have been spared. Maybe you would feel ashamed of yourself for being angry and sad in the first place. Ohh don't ask me whether this is a true story or not because i am just proposing a storyline out of my imagination to drive home a point.

My point is obvious. Sometimes when our plan does not go accordingly, it may turn out to be the best thing that ever happen to us! As a Muslim i am always reminded of the 6th pillar of my faith that is believing in 'Qada' & Qadar', believing that our fate has been destined by our Creator.It is none other than God the Almighty who sometimes intervenes in our planning to do or carry out something. Coz He knows best.

It happened to me a lot. Sometimes i cringed in sorrow and wondering why, oh why the plan that i had made did not go accordingly and had in fact failed miserably? It turned out that had my plan did happen, then i would be in a bigger trouble than I was at that time. Well, trouble in the sense of losses and wastage of time.

Thus far i am very happy that i have come to terms with myself and i can just say that i have reconciled all the differences in me and rearranged my priorities. If the 'dulang' in front of me has only got a bowl of porridge, take it and be grateful to the Provider for giving such blessings. It's not the item that matters. What matters are eventhough you dont actually deserve anything, but still you are given something to fill in your stomach. yes He is truly the Most Beneficient and the Most Merciful.

I used to neglect all these porridges on my 'dulang' and kept waiting for the biG fish to land on it. This is because I have been promised by some people that a biG fish is going to land on my 'dulang' soon provided if i do as they say. I was ever ready for anything. Hey who wouldn't? I was already imagining the biG fish, that is cooked in 3 tastes (ikan masak 3 rasa lah!) or perhaps the sumptuous steamed fish cooked chinese style! It turned out that these people are no better than the fishmongers themselves, waiting likewise because someone else have promised them the same. Now at least even there are anchovies landed on my dulang i will greatly appreciate it compared to the promises from these people who produce nothing other than the famous saying in Malay meaning - 'dirt also don't have'!

Well it turned out that these porridges that were placed in my dulang by the Almighty had really saved the day for me. It is because of these small porridges that kept me going till today when by the standard of reasonableness and in all probability i should have been succumbed to destitute and probably eligible to receive 'zakat' designated for the fakir miskin. Seriously! But praise to the Almighty somehow or rather i did survive and am still surviving though painfully. Well i must say that i shouldnt take the credit on my own. Many thanks and love to my other better half who without fear and shame bulldozed her way through like a champion. I would never forget the sacrifice, my dear! The only regret i have was why i didnt see this sooner. I am sure there is a reason for these things to happen.

As it is i am now more cautious than ever. I dont take people's words in verbatim anymore especially in terms of my 'rezeki' or blessings in my life. I believe that i must have a plan in life. Not only that I must plan to plan my life. So that eventhough i am having this biG opportunity that promises a biG fish in return, i will not forget nor abandon my daily routines no matter how small or insignificant it may be compared to the biG fish i hope to get.

Well, by now you are wondering is there any point to things i have spoken thus far? Oh yes there is. I am announcing a possibility that i may be flying off to far away land in days to come. Where you might ask? Well at the moment let me borrow the words of our infamous Datin Seri Dato' CT Nurhaliza ... Biarlah rahsia (Let it be a secret)

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Mungkin ceritanya sama sahaja seperti dulu tetapi jalan ceritanya berbeza dan harap-harap penyudahnya pun tak sama. Dulu saya amat lemah, mempercayai bahawa dengan kata-kata manuasia sahaja ianya boleh mengubah nasib. Sebenarnya itu salah dan jauh menyimpang daripada ajaran asas. Hanya Tuhan sahaja yang menentukan sama ada sesuatu itu wajar diberi atau diperolehi. Dan kita harus mempercayai bahawa Tuhan hanya memberi kita yang terbaik dalam hidup, hanya kita manusia yang sentiasa merosak dan mempersia-siakan pemberian Tuhan ini.

Sebenarnya saya memang berusaha keras dan sentiasa berdoa agar peluang yang saya ada dapat membuahkan hasil yang akan mengubah hidup saya, kalau tidak pun mengembalikan saya kepada status asal. Dan peluang ini pada masa ini berada di luar negara. Setakat ini nampaknya mungkin ada rezeki untuk meneruskan usaha ini bersama beberapa kenalan dan taulan yang lain. Walau apapun, rezeki di sini walau sekecilmana sekali pun saya tidak akan tinggalkan. Saya yakin kali ini dengan izin Yang Maha Esa, saya mampu menghasilkan yang terbaik buat diri saya dan keluarga.

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So, thats it. Thats my plan. I used to say that I am now planning to go... but now i would prefer saying and now I am planning a plan to go overseas on such a such a date and if God Willing this journey shall take place in a few days or so.

Please wait for my journey entry once the journey begins but till then I shall be posting some new stuff along the way.

Have a Good Day.

Home Sweet Home.

The month of december

Assalamu'alaikum,

It's the month of december. countdown to new year. 2008 that is. I've been so preoccupied with little things in life and seemed to forget that i do have a bloG to update.

A lot has happenned a month ago. In our country that is. street demonstrations have predominantly occupied our mainstream media, lately.

My view is reserved. I am practising the 'look see' attitude. Hey c'mmon, like everyone else i am also malaysian. thats what we all do right? we all like to 'look & see' whether it would effect us in any way. if it doesn't we would normally leave it as it is and go on with our lives. But if it does effect our lives we will 'look & see' whether it would have a grave effect to our present life or not, in other words how serious is it? if no, we will leave it & carry on with our lives as usual. By the way, most of us wouldn't care if it effects our 'cucus' or 'cicits'. Dont ask me why.

Well okay, let's face it. It seems there is a segment of our society who feel that they have been sidelined and marginalised for the past 50 years since we gained our independence. They also alleged that they have somewhat been oppressed to a certain extent and in some cases the allegation goes as far as being cleansed out of existence. Their ethnicity that is. Well, if you do live in malaysia, born and bred that is, you would know that these allegations are nothing more than a load of - the substance that is being processed by our Indah Water.

Ok, ok ... for those sympathisers out there, yes i would agree to a certain extent that these segment of our society who according to the statistics are the minority race in this country MIGHT have been marginalised and sidelined. BUT Hey! wait! Dont we all feel marginalised and sidelined at times, even if we belong to the race group that are known as 'the prince of earth' or those race group that when they celebrate their new year almost majority of our shops will be closed for a week? This feeling is shared by all of us no matter what race we belong to.

Okay. Let us be realistic Imagine we are being ruled by the British. This supposition is on the 'what if basis'. That is what if our Almarhum Tunku and his delegates were denied independence 50 years ago?

Let us see what could have happenned. First, I verily believe that our prime minister will be somebody who carries a surname instead of a 'bin' or 'binti' or a/l or a/p. Maybe our petronas will be BP instead, that is british petroleum and our satellite tv will come directly under the BBC. How about the aviation industry. Yes maybe for the country's sake they will allow malaysia airlines to fly just like when they allowed the cathay pacific when they ruled Hong Kong. But Air Asia? Headed by a minority race? i doubt so very much. How about our ports? will they allow it to be run by a minority race also?

Let's face it. I believe we all can agree if our quest for independence 50 years ago was denied or failed for whatever reason maybe, our country would not be the same. For the better, you would ask? I doubt so very much. Unless you are a die hard fan of the union jack and a loyal subject of the Queen of England, maybe you would feel like 'died and went to heaven'.

Ok my question is, if really truly the Indians have been marginalised and sidelined deliberately by the Government and victimised for the last 50 years do you think: -

a. one of them can control our satellite TV? Owned one of the biggest telecommunication company? and this person who carries the title tan sri is reported to be the wealthiest person if not, the second most wealthiest person in the country.

b. they are allowed to build a very huge statue in batu caves in gold colour overlooking the city? and not to forget to carry on with their yearly procession of carrying 'kavadi' and what not during the thaipusam.

c. the celebration of their faith known to us as deepavali and others as diwali be given a public holiday status and being celebrated nationally as rumah terbuka deepavali and attended by our King and PM? also thaipusam for some states?

d. one of them jointly owned in majority and operates a very successful low cost air carrier in the country known as air asia?

e. their schools and temples flourished everywhere eventhough some have been disallowed due to non approval by the local municipality.

f. one of our ports situated in klang is being operated by one of them also carries a title tan sri.

g. can win 1st ever malaysian idol.

... and i think the list goes on and on
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Kadang-kadang pepatah melayu memang ada kebenarannya. Bagi betis nak peha. Ini yang sesuai digunakan untuk menzahirkan perasaan kaum melayu apabila kaum India Hindu di negara ini membuat tuntutan melalui sebuah badan bertindak yang dinamakan HINDRAF.

Lebih kurang 3 bulan yang lalu apabila terbaca laporan dari laman blog yang tidak direstui kerajaan mengenai usaha seorang peguam di negara ini untuk menyaman kerajaan UK antara lain untuk ganti rugi 1 juta pound sterling bagi setiap orang India di negara ini, luahan rasa hanyalah tertawa dengan gelagat mereka ini yang mungkin terpengaruh dengan filem-filem Tamil yang dibintangi Rajinikanth dan sebagainya. Tapi gerak hati ada juga merasa bimbang kalau-kalau ada asasnya tuntutan ini. Manalah tahukan kadang-kadang kita terperangkap akibat selalu memandang remeh banyak perkara.

Rupa-rupanya betul juga gerak hati yang berasa bimbang dan risau. Mereka ini ibarat anai-anai yang kalau tidak ditangani dari awal memang boleh meruntuhkan bangunan walau seteguh mana sekalipun bangunan itu berdiri. Sepatutnya kerajaan bertindak pantas menyatakan pendirian yang tegas terhadap mereka ini. Janganlah 'be too apologetic'.

Sebelum catatan ini dinukil, saya duduk di sebelah starbucks di KL Sentral menunggu seorang kenalan dan saya perhatikan bersebelahan saya, muda-mudi india lebih kurang 5, 6 orang duduk ketawa bersama-sama mereka di starbucks tersebut bagai tiada apa yang dirisaukan atau susah.

Pada masa yang sama semasa malayari laman bloG yang tidak direstui itu, sekali lagi terbaca perihal ketua HIndraf memberi kata dua kepada PM. Jumpa dalam masa seminggu kalau tidak mereka akan terus bawa isu ke luar negara. Wah wah wah! Hebat sunguh mereka ini boleh memberi kata dua kepada PM sebegitu sekali. Antara yang dituntut mereka nakkan Timbalan PM ke 2 dari kaum bukan melayu. mereka kata tak kisahlah siapa, samy vellu pun ok. dan lagi satu permintaan mereka, mereka nakkan jawatan Menteri Kewangan diberi kepada kaum Cina. Tengoklah. Memang licik mereka berdrama. Bagai belut dalam longkang. Ini peribahasa saya cipta sendiri.

Lepas tu saya terfikir sejenak.... ahhh lupakan lah, siapa lah saya untuk memberi komentar. Saya harap kerajaan khususnya parti yang memerintah mengambil tindakan segera untuk membendung perkara-perkara yang tidak diingini khususnya janganlah biarkan kaum-kaum lain tersinggung.

OK. Best regards always.

Subang Jaya.