Planning a Plan

You all might be thinking, what in the name of topic is this? Planning a plan? Am i trying to be fancy with titles for my posting nowadays? Come to think of it... yeah why not. It does sound a little catchy. Planning to Plan or perhaps planning a plan. Like planting a plant. Ok that settles then. If i ever going to write a book i'll reserve this title Planning a Plan as the main title of my book.

But then what shall i write about in my book? About my life story? Hell no. Who would want to read a story about someone who has just failed miserably in making choices in life and has yet to recover from it? In other words who would want to read a book about losing weight written by someone who has yet to lose any?

Anyway, i kind of think that in life we plan all sorts of things but at the end if it is not meant to be.. well it won't happen. Sometimes it turned out that the plan that we have planned to carry out, if carried out and materialised will have an adverse impact on us. In other words it could turn against us. For example you plan to climb a mountain. For months you have been planning this but on the date planned something came up which disallowed you to join the team to go. You felt angry and sad obviously for not being able to go. But then it turned out that something disastrous had happenned. Those who did go - according to the plan - were unfortunately and tragically struck by lightning , all of them upon reaching the top of the mountain. And some even perished at the site. How then would you feel? Still angry and sad or relieve and overjoy that you have been spared. Maybe you would feel ashamed of yourself for being angry and sad in the first place. Ohh don't ask me whether this is a true story or not because i am just proposing a storyline out of my imagination to drive home a point.

My point is obvious. Sometimes when our plan does not go accordingly, it may turn out to be the best thing that ever happen to us! As a Muslim i am always reminded of the 6th pillar of my faith that is believing in 'Qada' & Qadar', believing that our fate has been destined by our Creator.It is none other than God the Almighty who sometimes intervenes in our planning to do or carry out something. Coz He knows best.

It happened to me a lot. Sometimes i cringed in sorrow and wondering why, oh why the plan that i had made did not go accordingly and had in fact failed miserably? It turned out that had my plan did happen, then i would be in a bigger trouble than I was at that time. Well, trouble in the sense of losses and wastage of time.

Thus far i am very happy that i have come to terms with myself and i can just say that i have reconciled all the differences in me and rearranged my priorities. If the 'dulang' in front of me has only got a bowl of porridge, take it and be grateful to the Provider for giving such blessings. It's not the item that matters. What matters are eventhough you dont actually deserve anything, but still you are given something to fill in your stomach. yes He is truly the Most Beneficient and the Most Merciful.

I used to neglect all these porridges on my 'dulang' and kept waiting for the biG fish to land on it. This is because I have been promised by some people that a biG fish is going to land on my 'dulang' soon provided if i do as they say. I was ever ready for anything. Hey who wouldn't? I was already imagining the biG fish, that is cooked in 3 tastes (ikan masak 3 rasa lah!) or perhaps the sumptuous steamed fish cooked chinese style! It turned out that these people are no better than the fishmongers themselves, waiting likewise because someone else have promised them the same. Now at least even there are anchovies landed on my dulang i will greatly appreciate it compared to the promises from these people who produce nothing other than the famous saying in Malay meaning - 'dirt also don't have'!

Well it turned out that these porridges that were placed in my dulang by the Almighty had really saved the day for me. It is because of these small porridges that kept me going till today when by the standard of reasonableness and in all probability i should have been succumbed to destitute and probably eligible to receive 'zakat' designated for the fakir miskin. Seriously! But praise to the Almighty somehow or rather i did survive and am still surviving though painfully. Well i must say that i shouldnt take the credit on my own. Many thanks and love to my other better half who without fear and shame bulldozed her way through like a champion. I would never forget the sacrifice, my dear! The only regret i have was why i didnt see this sooner. I am sure there is a reason for these things to happen.

As it is i am now more cautious than ever. I dont take people's words in verbatim anymore especially in terms of my 'rezeki' or blessings in my life. I believe that i must have a plan in life. Not only that I must plan to plan my life. So that eventhough i am having this biG opportunity that promises a biG fish in return, i will not forget nor abandon my daily routines no matter how small or insignificant it may be compared to the biG fish i hope to get.

Well, by now you are wondering is there any point to things i have spoken thus far? Oh yes there is. I am announcing a possibility that i may be flying off to far away land in days to come. Where you might ask? Well at the moment let me borrow the words of our infamous Datin Seri Dato' CT Nurhaliza ... Biarlah rahsia (Let it be a secret)

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Mungkin ceritanya sama sahaja seperti dulu tetapi jalan ceritanya berbeza dan harap-harap penyudahnya pun tak sama. Dulu saya amat lemah, mempercayai bahawa dengan kata-kata manuasia sahaja ianya boleh mengubah nasib. Sebenarnya itu salah dan jauh menyimpang daripada ajaran asas. Hanya Tuhan sahaja yang menentukan sama ada sesuatu itu wajar diberi atau diperolehi. Dan kita harus mempercayai bahawa Tuhan hanya memberi kita yang terbaik dalam hidup, hanya kita manusia yang sentiasa merosak dan mempersia-siakan pemberian Tuhan ini.

Sebenarnya saya memang berusaha keras dan sentiasa berdoa agar peluang yang saya ada dapat membuahkan hasil yang akan mengubah hidup saya, kalau tidak pun mengembalikan saya kepada status asal. Dan peluang ini pada masa ini berada di luar negara. Setakat ini nampaknya mungkin ada rezeki untuk meneruskan usaha ini bersama beberapa kenalan dan taulan yang lain. Walau apapun, rezeki di sini walau sekecilmana sekali pun saya tidak akan tinggalkan. Saya yakin kali ini dengan izin Yang Maha Esa, saya mampu menghasilkan yang terbaik buat diri saya dan keluarga.

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So, thats it. Thats my plan. I used to say that I am now planning to go... but now i would prefer saying and now I am planning a plan to go overseas on such a such a date and if God Willing this journey shall take place in a few days or so.

Please wait for my journey entry once the journey begins but till then I shall be posting some new stuff along the way.

Have a Good Day.

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